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Hey Mike,

Thanks for the kind words. I don't mean to complain (hell I don't!), but it seems like those who are truly walking in the path of God are meant to suffer. I had a pretty big revelation about that, however. Suffering in God's path is actually god remaking us. What we call suffering and want to avoid is actually the love of God and our cross. There is no way around it. Those who are not walking in God's path "dwell in poverty", though they may have the world. It makes no difference whether you have material things or not. I also believe that EVERYTHING that happens to us is exactly as it is supposed to be. In fact, it is EXACTLY what we want to happen to us, the good and the bad. Try this way of thinking for a while. It will blow your mind how massively it changes your perspective about what is good and bad in life. We don't know what is good or bad, Michael. Frankly, if you really think about it, if we did get the life our mind told us would make us happy and we were still UN-happy, well then, thank God for the unhappy life we have, if that makes any sense. (Sigh).

What I am trying to say is that it seems to all be about acceptance. But it seems like our ego balks at accepting what our life is, actually is, at any given time. If we did accept then our ego would die and we would be left with, in the ego's mind, the hole in the donut. Never mind that the hole in the donut IS God. The letting go IS the process. But we are so attached to identifying ourselves with this way of thinking and believing. I mean, really meditate on this concept: YOUR LIFE IS EXACTLY THE WAY IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE. AND EVEN MORE THAN THAT (HERE'S THE BIG KICKER): IT IS EXACTLY THE WAY YOU WANT IT TO BE!

When you really consider this to be so, the ego collapses like an inflatable doll. It just pops and the air fizzes out and you are left with this hilarious understanding of what we like to refer to as our life. You then FEEL, and I mean really FEEL, that you are one with all that is. You let go, my man. And what you stand before is nothing less than the sum of all the parts and the fight is pretty much over at that point.

The KEY is to live in this place on a daily basis, with all of the incredible noise our mind continues to produce. Forget about the causes of our discontent from the outside. The overwhelming products of our discontent is from within ourselves. The mental movies and monkey chatter that we energize and BELIEVE. We are so accustomed to living as the slave in this way (The Matrix) that to be free is too traumatic and too frightening. How bout that? We are too afraid to be free.

When you bring all this to your awareness, Michael, you begin to bust it. You begin to say "I'm onto you fear. I'm onto you dread. I'm onto you shame". And it has no choice but to lay itself down at your feet and reveal the brilliant light behind its mask. You then SEE that even the ego is part of the shadow play and is not the enemy at all. And the play goes on and on and on until the etch-a-sketch is shook and we play again.

Hang in there my brother. God has not brought us this far to drop us. Have faith. BE grateful and know that you are the breath of all that is. That sweetness and joy that IS the Kingdom of Heaven.

And I did post comments on the blog. Did you not see them?

Your brother in all,

Tony