Pure Agape Love Affirmation.

As I stand in perfect self-acceptance, the need for my ego to announce itself lessens, for my fear of not being loved diminishes. There in my humbleness, my supply is from an internal source, and it is infinite and unconditional and not dependent upon any outer appearance.

With forgiveness, I access the depth of my love, which is infinite and unconditional in its nature. With forgiveness, I cease to project my unhealed self onto the world around me, and I am no longer held captive by my own negative energy. With forgiveness, my mind and heart are set free to see only God before me.

With clarity, I am free from the haze and dust of my own confused thinking. I am clean and pure in my thought. I am easily heard and easily seen. I am free from doubt and guilt. I am unhampered, unqualified, and absolute in my discernment. I am free from entanglement. I am innocent.

With love as my true essence, I project only love in my outer world. That love becomes a healing balm upon the planet. I am set free to be my authentic self. In that freedom lies my true power. It doesn’t matter how others see me because I see myself, and I truly love and appreciate what I see.
-Karen S. Wylie

More me.

This wonderful photo was taken by Marty Barrett at Dodger Stadium. His lovely wife, Rebecca Gray, is a dear friend indeed. Her birthday is this Saturday. I send her best regards.

Look what I found!

This is quite a find. A photo of the 1983 La Jolla Playhouse production of Romeo and Juliet with Amanda Plummer and John Vickery. In this photo I am the one with the fezzy hat far left. How about that?

Lost and the Panoptic Prison of Jeremy Bentham

This might be of interest in terms of the zeitgeist of the penopticon.




"Lost" functions as a seditious and subversive act of the unconcious in the post-modern condition. In that way it is not disimilar to the literature and film of late 1970's Soviet authors and filmakers, most notably Andrei Tarkovsky with his tract on the soul's dilemma in his film "Stalker". "Lost" acts as a self-referential biofeedback loop, a parabola spiraling inwards to the self and its negation. Where is God in the post-modern world? Where do we find God in our current language of mentation? Can mentation produce the effects of an experience of the divine, which is at the heart of all mythological paradigms that we have observed.

Or is the experience of the divine greater than the belief in it, or even the removal of it as what God is not? Does man need an act of life to fully produce efficacy? These are at the heart of the panoptic prison which is a fully vested Western model of entropy. (my notes)

(Man with the chewing faces notes):

This is a collection, an anthology of sorts, an exercise in hunting and collecting of ideas about the present. The theme concerns the idea of the other, that which is not oneself, as being the place where identity and self-consciousness begin. Negation is part of our formation.

bottom In every binery set one side is privledged while the other is supressed or excluded.

It's clarity derives from that which it excludes, that which is withdrawn, removed, outside of it, which is separate





Let's start with the idea of surveillance and observation... Introducing the Penopticon...

The Penopticon was a model for a prison invented by Jeremy Bentham, sometimes known as the father of Utilitarianism. In this prison each cell faces inward towards a tower which is manned by a solitary guard. The method of control is that one perpetually feels as though one is being watched while never knowing or seeing the observer.

Would you like to enter the Penopticon?

Stop This Noise in My Head performance

Shortly you will be able to see a ten minute version of Stop This Noise in My Head-the performance. Unveiled at the recent Theater of Note Performance Marathon, the video has been uploaded onto Google Video under Stop This Noise in My Head, or Tony Forkush. We are waiting for it to appear and then will upload a lower resolution version on You Tube.
The Management

With love and affection Angelica.

My friend Angelica Danton. I love this photograph of you. I send you heartfelt thoughts and feelings. Until we meet again, my warmth and love are with you.
Tony

Back in business.

I have taken a few weeks off from writing on this blog. Truth be told, I have been severely depressed lately. I never really quite know what is causing it. Sufficith to say, it has taken just about all my energy to cope with the world.

I have identified my life-long struggle as a war between two worlds. The first world is the world of the Ego, the relentless negative voices (yes, there are many) that tell me what I cannot do. I have often heard it referred to a KFUK radio station, all negativity all the time. The hits just keep on coming. Now, its not really the egoic negativity that of itself has the power. The power of all things reside in my decision to energize it. But it is so massively unrelenting, preys so avariciously on my doubt and self-centered fear, that it's fairly easy for me to give in to its hideousness about me. Self knowledge, or knowledge of how this works is not sufficient to deactivate it. The only power that has any chance at all is God.

When God is the power in my life I am liberated from self-centered fear and negativity. When God is the power in my life I am free from all limitations of doubt and self-hatred. When God is the power I am returned to my native state of sat-chit-ananda: being, consciousness, bliss. In order to "be restored to sanity", however, I must choose to put my faith and belief in God. I must make the choice to believe what God says to me rather than what Negativity and the Ego say to me. Again, I have the decision here.

Why does it seem that the Ego is stronger? Because the Ego is how I have identified myself as myself for the bulk of my life. Not to mention it is the singular mode of identity that the world uses as a self-concept. The Ego knows only limitation and finititude. It knows nothing of timelessness and presence. God knows all of that. It is a shift in my priorities and starts with my energizing the positive aspects of my life versus the negative stream. I need help and support to do this. It is very easy for me to lapse right back into self-pity and negativity. I choose life today. My feelings will follow if I choose life.

I am exactly where I am supposed to be at this moment. All is as it should be. I have relinquished my attachment to what my ego tells me is necessary for my happiness. I follow Gods truth and transcend the self to be of use to others and to help man and woman/kind. May all beings live with peace. May all beings live in freedom. May all beings abide in grace.